Divine Timing And the Awakening Process: Clearing – Shedding of the Old Self – Kundalini Awakening -

When this phase starts you might as well throw your best-laid plans out the window. It is Divine Time to deal with your traumatized shadow self, your inflamed ego and your resentful, neglected and rage-filled inner child. Basically all the aspects of yourself that you kept repressing, oppressing or ignoring now come up to the surface to be acknowledged, recognized, loved and finally released with compassion (whenever you can) into the light.

And let me tell you, in the beginning, they are whoppers! Lifetimes of addictions, co-dependency, fears, unworthiness, traumas, guilt, shame, unresolved pain, abuse and self-abuse (last but the not the least – not by a long shot!) pile up or stand in line, whichever analogy works best for you, boisterously demanding your attention and grabbing at you from all sides, like bats out of hell (sorry Bats I love you dearly) triggering you left, right and center.

As if this wasn’t enough, when photonic light starts permeating every nook and cranny of your physical and subtle bodies, Ascension symptoms kick in (you can find comprehensive lists on many videos and websites). The most common ones I’ve had to endure were flu-like symptoms, fatigue, downright exhaustion, headaches, blurred or double vision, ringing in the ears, depression, heavy and sudden emotional fluctuations and, most challenging of all for me, unrelenting insomnia which was mainly due to rising Kundalini.

Again, Kundalini awakening is a very personal experience that shapes an individual’s awakening process in a multitude of ways. It can be deliberately triggered through practice (which does not seem to be recommended) or it simply occurs spontaneously. Mine occurred spontaneously and it took me some time to realize that it was even happening. I had absolutely no clue as to what Kundalini was and, what with everything else that was bombarding my body and mind at the time, it was very difficult to identify the various processes that make up the Awakening experience.

My biggest challenge with Kundalini has been and still is unrelenting insomnia, and by that I mean years of getting by on a few hours of sleep per week. This is mainly due, in my humble opinion, to newly activated DNA strands coming online and transforming you at a cellular level, from carbon-based DNA to the 5th dimensional crystalline DNA which will later become your Light Body. DNA is a photonic light receiver and generator, it is what manifests personal, collective and multi-dimensional experiences in form ( ref. Sandra Walters). Kundalini is this electric energy of light travelling through your body and when it hits blocks your Higher Self/I AM Presence creates/manifests 3D experiences to give you new opportunities for mastery and embodiment of the New way of being. It is basically your Higher Self’s energy being integrated in your physical body or Embodiment and, as you can well imagine, it is not an easy process.

Sounds bad, sounds painful? IT IS!

And you wonder: what the hell have I got myself into? What the F… was I thinking? When will this end?

You can call it the Dark Night of the Soul, processing, clearing, releasing, letting go of old timelines, surrendering, shedding, peeling off layers… whatever rocks your boat. What it really is, as you come to understand in time, is an absolutely necessary phase of awakening where you get to confront all the issues pent up in your conscious and sub-conscious blocking you from evolving at a cellular level. It is the only real and effective way to progressively let go of lifetimes upon lifetimes of outdated conditioning to make space for the NEW YOU to emerge.

They are growth or birth pains in a very literal sense.

As this daunting and challenging period starts to slowly let up you begin to feel the results of the gradual integration of light in your four bodily systems and overall consciousness.