Welcome to the Here and Now

I haven’t been able to write for a while now. Every time I sit down to jot down some ideas I realize that transformation is still happening so thick and strong, that my brain freezes on what exactly to formulate as current energies. Everyone on this journey has been feeling it, the extremely high frequencies of light pouring in since March. Ups and downs again, fatigue, sleeplessness but also blissful heights and wonderful epiphanies.

After talking about Divine Timing it seems only fitting to get into the Here and Now. It is something that is constantly highlighted by the Ascending community. New Age, Spiritual or Ascending community are all terms fraught with misconceptions and tainted by relative controversy and negativity, so I use them here very circumspectly. Let’s call it the global community that is aware of the spiritual paradigm shift happening right now on Gaia: the light-workers, way-showers who have experienced first-hand the weightlessness and timelessness of 5D. It is something that has been repeatedly touched upon, described and discussed in all mystical/spiritual texts throughout history. It has happened to me enough times now that I’m able to recognize it and abide in it whenever I can.

Everyone will gladly tell you how important it is to live in the here and now, how blissful and liberating. And they would be right! However, it’s easier said than done, as are many things on the Ascension Journey.

I guess the best way to describe when you are at peace in the Now moment – that is to say fully centered and present - is to make you remember one of your favorite memories. Just breathe deeply and take a moment to bring back to life one of your fondest memories: perhaps a day spent at the beach with your loved ones, one of those perfect summer days of sea, sand and sun, of playfulness and laughter. Or maybe a dinner in the dead of winter, comfortably snug in the warmth of your home with friends, banter and good food. Really bring this moment back to life, in your mind’s eye but also in your physical and emotional bodies. How did you feel? Were you light as feather, with not a care in the world, completely absorbed by the good vibes being exchanged with ease and grace? In these moments you are not thinking of the past or worrying about the future. In fact you are so captivated that time simply vanishes and there is nowhere or no one else you’d rather be, everything flows in the perfection of effortless alignment. It is a true state of grace that is always there if you feel deeper past the endless mind-chatter.

That’s all fine and dandy when you’re feeling good right? You don’t have to do much be happy when… you effortlessly are! But what happens when you’re not, when you’re feeling depressed, anxious or sad? When outside circumstances are stressing you, exerting pressure on your nervous system and you’re about to explode? How do you sustain THAT in the present moment? Do you even feel like being present at all then?

Well, to feel peaceful and centered in the here and now depends largely on the balance and health of the 4 bodily systems as well as the chakras, the inner child, energetic fields, and the ego. Bearing in mind that the integration of the ego is paramount, meaning that getting rid of the ego is an old paradigm conception of healing. It’s not about shunning the ego, condemning and shaming it for being inflamed or destructively protective, but to heal its imbalances and fully integrate it through the sacred union of heart and mind.

And for this overall balance to happen it is necessary, vital really to go through some deep healing of your core wounds – and everyone who is incarnated has some, that’s just the human condition/ conditioning and nothing to feel bad about, it actually is a phenomenal path to growth when you accept it and consciously start healing misalignment.

You are asked to release sticky situations and patterns and - the thing is - they do stick, that’s their nature. You are asked to let go of limiting beliefs and… the thing is… they are limiting: they restrict your vision and hide in your blind spots. You need to surrender when sometimes the only thing you want to do is rebel in anger and rage. You’re supposed to be joyfully expanding and a lot of the time you are, however other times, you’ve will never have felt more restricted, stuck, rotten and decaying in a seemingly endless rut.

What, then, is one to do? If you’re just starting on this journey, chances are you’re still in the throes of some very deep healing of heavy core issues that need to come up to the surface to be addressed. At this early stage it is all you can do to hold on as your life drastically changes and the rug is literally been pulled from under your feet. I guess what I mean to say is you have enough to contend with without really worrying about the present moment.

There will come a moment however, sooner or later, when you find you’ve settled down enough in the new energies to be able to navigate your Ascension more deliberately. The balance I was talking about earlier will have taken effect enough for you to be able to steer yourself successfully from unwanted experience and into calmer waters. The present moment will then appear like the greatest gift you’ve ever been given.

This is not to say that you will be done with all your healing and living in a yippee forever moment. On the contrary, the more you go on the deeper parts of yourself you are accessing to bring up and transmute into the light.

After enough clearing and healing has taken place, you realize you have been and still are to a certain extent addicted to difficulty, trauma, and clutter. With relationships, patterns, constructs, habits, self-limiting beliefs and drama falling away more and more from your reality, a new space is created which is akin to a blank slate. This newly created space can be overwhelming, you are not used to having this much freedom and time on your hands so to speak and the immediate reaction is one of fear, anxiety and a powerful urge to regress, to fill this void with previously comforting stuff basically to just fill in the gaps.

It takes a concerted effort and very deliberate, daily action to resist this self-sabotage and need for regression and start getting acquainted with this spaciousness that has invaded your life. It is time to replace the long-favored addictions with healthier options. It can be challenging at first, but the more you move in that direction the more benefits you reap, the more connection and flow you experience and with enough momentum and wind in your sails, you just won’t want to look back.

By then you would have learned to give yourself a break, to recognize where you’re at and whether it feels open or closed, contracted or expanded, loving or sullen and have compassion for yourself whatever you are going through in the present moment.

You’ll have the inner power to let things unfold in perfect divine timing, which, in my opinion, is the true definition of patience - not waiting for things to happen but being the peaceful witness of the natural flow of life.

Be gentle with yourself through this process, don’t berate or judge yourself when the compulsion to backslide gets too strong to resist. It is natural to feel pulled back at times. It is the ebb and flow of Ascension. When it passes, just get back on track and take from where you left it.

Practical Advice: some kind of daily routine that you like doing – study something you’re passionate about for no other reason than to learn more about it. Have the attitude of an open-minded and curious scientist – give yourself plenty of room for exploration without attachment to specific outcomes.